My
experience of Gnyan Vidhi
Jan
Esmann
Sept.
9th 2006 I attained Self realization. Here's how it happened:
All my life I have been a seeker,
getting this guru's or that guru's blessing, meditating for hours a day,
etc. like so many of us have. But I never made it. I experienced immense
bliss, had wonderful experiences of exalted states, but I never got
detached from Jan except in glimpses or short periods, and since what is
transient is not real, I maintain I never made it at all. After 30 years
of hard work, I had given up. Then a friend of mine emailed me a link to
www.dadashri.org and asked if I knew this guru. I did not, but was
immediately captivated by Dadashri's picture and the shakti (spiritual
energy) i sensed he had. In fact I quickly became obsessed. I simply had
to receive gnyan vidhi as soon as possible. Remember I knew nothing
about this and had never heard of it before. It was simply the shakti
pulling me, and pulling really strong, stronger than I have ever felt
before. Since i could not meet him in person, I could meet his
successor, Deepakbhai, and discovered the earliest chance was in
Singapore. I live in Denmark, so this was a really long trip. Never the
less off we went, my friend and I.
I must say, I have never, in any spiritual community, been so
well received before. The kindness and attention was unlimited. Since
the meetings were in Gujarati, we could of course not understand a word,
but we got our own personal translator, who, by the way, looked well
after us the entire stay. There was about 150 Indians who understood
Gujarati, and then the two of us from Denmark. But we never felt
outside, on the contrary people just wanted us to feel at ease and at
home. We were even invited for dinner at a nice Indian family’s home.
We were explained Deepakbhai has the special power to manifest
higher states in us through his voice and all we had to do during the
Gnyan vidhi was to repeat, loudly, the phrases he said. Most of these
phrases were in Gujarati, so I did not understand their meaning and had
a hard time repeating them correctly. But for our sake he also said the
important phrases in English.
I soon felt an intense
hot energy pouring into the top of my head and felt the crown chakra
open wide. Then my brain felt as if it was boiling. It was like a
million bubbles bursting inside my brain. A surge of energy rose in me
and I was filled with joy. So much so I could not help laughing and
missed repeating more phrases. It became clear to me, that I was being
given what I have longed for: a realization of my pure self and a clear
distinction between Jan and my being. This opening of the crown chakra
persists undiminished today, so does the clear distinction.
Following this I saw
emptiness in everything, which of course is nothing but pure spirit,
pure self, shuddhatma. I was amazed at how people could be nothingness,
yet act and speak. This clear vision grew all the next day and continued
to amaze me. I still am amazed, since this perception of nothingness has
never entirely left me, though it may be more or less present. It is
Self realization both on the inner and outer level. The nothingness is
slowly changing to joy.
When I closed my eyes
to meditate, I did not do any practice. I simply and quickly slid into
pure self and joy welled up. This continues today.
I
am infinitely grateful to Dadashri for having brought this to the world
and to Deepakbhai for having given it to me.
Jan
Esmann
Sept
14, 2006
One thing is sure: Deepakbhai's GV (Gnan Vidhi) changed my life
completely to one in bliss. Nothing in the world will make me turn
around on that. I don't know what my role in akram vignan is. But I will
state this simple fact and let people think of it, what they will. By
nature I am vary anarchistic, but what GV has done for me is awesome.
Jan Essman
June
12, 2007
www.lovebliss.eu
Jan
Esmann lives in Denmark
He
has written extensively about his spiritual journey
Please
see his web site
www.lovebiss.eu
