In the current issue of Dadavani, beautiful material has been compiled in which Gnani Purush Dadashri molds and prepares Pujya Niruma in graded steps towards the offering to the world another Gnani. This is like a sculptor who first cuts a gross mass of a marble block and then chips away at it very patiently to reveal a final form of a Lord in the final finishing touches of a precise and exquisitely detailed eyes, nose, lips and other parts of the face and body, and finally prepares it for instillation of life—pran pratishtha—for mass worship—darshan. Most revered Gnani Purush Dadashri had the time to create such a marvel in the living human image of Pujya Niruma. He molded her in various ways through chiseling jabs of all types necessary, which Pujya Niruma received, accepted and yielded to with grace and total surrender and ultimate humility and abhedata—oneness—with the Gnani. Her devotion towards Dadashri remained matchless and unaffected by all the varieties of chiseling and molding that Dadashri employed on her and then He laid her at the feet of the world for the magnanimous task of salvation of the world as a finished product.
In the beginning of this mold and preparation, Dadashri makes Pujya Niruma adhere to the goal of jagat kalyan—salvation—of the world. He then makes her free from all traces—parmanoos, elements of sexuality and thereafter he cuts her inner subtle tendencies of maan—pride and ego. Then he brings about an end to all elements of kapat—deceit and moha—illusion within her. Dadashri uses the term ‘heat treatment’ for his methods employed on her to get rid of all passions and negativities in her. Moreover, the amazing uniqueness of this interaction is that Pujya Niruma remained in total surrender and sincere to the Gnani Purush Dadashri throughout and at no time did she shirk away from this ‘treatment’. Therefore, Dadashri got the full scope and was able to accomplish the molding to the completion of a product that is defined as a Gnani. In this she received tremendous rajipo—sense of a task accomplished with ultimate satisfaction—of the Gnani, and became a vessel of infinite grace of the Gnani, received the karuna—compassion of the Gnani and became abheda—one with—the Gnani. She stayed with the Gnani as two souls and one body, from the very first day until the end of the twenty years in uninterrupted seva—service.
This issue of Dadavani is a compilation of the Gnanvani—the speech of the Gnani Purush only. The material of letters, writings and experiences of Pujya Niruma by itself is so vast that would take the form of a thousand books. However, Pujya Niruma always strictly prohibited any printing of her own material in the form of books and therefore we have not used any of that material here.
Her annual Gurupurnima message to mahatmas were eagerly looked forward to, carefully received, studied and meditated upon. Once Deepak approached Pujya Niruma about printing these messages in Dadavani, whereupon she thoroughly took him to task for the suggestion and forthrightly told him, why do you want to do it? There is no need for it. Only Dada’s vani—speech must be printed, and if the mahatmas want to remember it let them, if not let them forget it, it will cause no harm. There is no need to print any speech of mine. Consider Dadashri as the prime focus and beyond Him, give the prime importance to Lord Simandhar. I am simply the dust at their feet. There is simply no need to print any of my speech. This was her param vinay—absolute humility—for Dadashri.
In the current issue some of the speech that came forth from Dadashri about Niruma has been compiled.
--Deepak Desai
Dadashri: Tell me, why did you do all these studies.
Niruben: To tell the truth Dada, from the very childhood while doing studies I had the thoughts that all the studying must be to serve, not for any personal livelihood . Later, after meeting Dada everything has changed.
Dadashri: Did you learn how to serve, in all these studies?
Niruben: Yes.
Dadashri: Did you later have any desire to earn money?
Niruben: No, the desire to earn money has never arisen.
Dadashri: What work is to be done? What is your goal? Is the goal to live with Dada or is there any other goal?
Niruben: To live with Dada and do the work of salvation of the world.
Dadashri: Is that so? For the salvation of the world! Who can impede the one who has made the unflinching commitment to the goal of salvation of the world? There is no shakti—power in the world which can obstruct and the celestial Gods of the entire universe are showering flowers on you. There is not a single Dev—celestial God who does not have a familiar connection with Dada. Therefore, make a commitment that I want to do this work only. The needs of this body will be fulfilled with royal splendor. You do not have to be concerned with any need of this body anymore. Those needs will be automatically fulfilled. The moment you make this decision, from that moment onwards you will not have to be concerned with those needs at all. As long as you exist in sansaarbhaav—I am Niru, this world is mine—then there will be worries for the needs of this body. And here—with Dada, the Self expressed—what to talk of needs? There is jahojalali—the ease of royal splendor! Have you not seen Dada’s splendor? Dada does not want anything yet luxury abounds, no?
Niruben: In your company in the middle of a jungle, when awakened at midnight, Dada’s royal splendor is such that all arrangements have been made, automatically from unknown sources. It is a wonder that all needs are met with ease and it happens from unknown sources. All needs of Dada, like meals and resting are taken care of.
Dadashri: Is there even a cent percent desire for anything else within?
Niruben: There is none, Dada.
Dadashri: Not a single kind of desire?
Niruben: I keep seeing if any other desire arises, but none comes.
Dadashri: She says, that all has been investigated regarding desires. Go ahead and check closely within to see if any kind of desire exists, and if so we can take care of it promptly. Finally, when only one kind of desire remains, then the Devaloks—celestial Gods remain with you (at your service). This is because there are limitations to what a human being alone can accomplish.
A human being needs tremendous help from the massive energy of Devsatta—energy of the Gods. This is because there is no parallel to the energy and power of the Gods. These celesyila Gods have the power to obstruct the work of human beings too. Just as here in this world the police marshals have so much authority, the celestial Gods too have such massive authority. These powerful forces will not impede you. The worldly beings are under their power too.
So would not a hundred or so arise from our mahatmas (those who have received the Gnan of Dadashri and are abiding by his Agnas)? A hundred are not needed, only five are needed. Five with one exclusive goal, nothing else, no wavering are needed. A goal without any mixture of desires, exclusive. Existing in sleep and awakened state, at all times only one goal. The same one goal in times of difficulty and when there is no difficulty. (1974)
What kind of work are you involved in?
Niruben: In supporting the goal of salvation of the world.
Dadashri: How many minutes?
Niruben: Constantly.
Dadashri: What does one need when one is constantly in this? Heinh?—Dadashri’s vocalization of emphasis. Constantly in salvation of the world, even the dreams that come are of salvation of the world, and what else is there to be done beyond the work of salvation? There is deliverance to be done of the pudgal—the formed complex of the thoughts speech and action, the worldly bodies. Their religious salvation has to be done. The physical needs of the world have all been taken care of—pudgalic kalyan.
Niru, in the last four to six days you have become Mahavir—the enlightened Lord. You have placed your worldly self in Dada and you have placed Dada in your worldly self. In the absence of such bodily differentiation, then you indeed are Mahavir. (November 7, 1969)
Niru used to nurture the bhav—deep inner intent—that let me remain in the body of Dada and let Dada remain in my body. I read those bhavs. So then I said, I would fulfill all the bhavs in her mind. She has come forth in this life carrying forward with her my great past life connections. (July 9, 1968)
(In 1987, Dadashri had a satsang with a lady named Jackie in Los Angeles, USA. Jackie asked, ‘Dada, what is your relationship with this Niruben here? Dadashri replied, ‘ Niruben is an MD doctor and is in my constant service, and lives with the abhedata—oneness with me—as two souls and one body in worldly interactions.’)
Niru, no one has the power to take you away from me. Even so, I am with you, constantly, and will not let even a mosquito—stray human being—bother you. Moreover, when you become very exasperated, and write a letter to me, Dada will promptly come and stand by your side. (November 22, 1968)
I have to place upayog—focused awareness of the enlightened one—for Niruben. After placing such inner attention—upayog—I saw Niruben’s vyavasthit—order of the life of Niruben. I saw this by placing the upayog during my stay in Aurangabad. I never place upayog to see my own vyavasthit, but I did see Niruben’s vyavsathit in this manner. On the first day when Niruben came, I told about what will happen, but at that time I had not placed the upayog. I have never attempted to see my own vyavasthit. (December 1, 1968)
Sant Purush Balubhai (Niruben’s father) left his mortal body at 1:39 AM in the night. Dada tells Niruben, ‘ Tell all the boys (Niruben’s brothers) that your father is sitting here. He (Balubhai) has simply changed the coat ( body). Niru, Balubhai has left in ease, but your father is sitting right here in Mama ni poda—residence of Dadashri in Vadodara. Balubhai has proceeded on to a birth in the celestial realm—devagati. (December 1, 1968)
Why did the punyai—merit karma—of Niru awaken—unfold? I uttered these words sahajasahaj—with natural spontaneousness—that, ‘ ben—sister, your baap—father may have left, but this here, I, your father is sitting right here. Even for your brothers from this day onwards, I am their father. Before giving Gnan to Niru, I had said that , this here (Niru) is a very close file—result of a previous life interaction—of mine. (December 3 1968)
Niru has become a doctor, but has she kept anything of her won with her? And she has constantly absorbed everything of mine—Dada’s. If Niru were to stay six months with me, she has the potential to become a great mahatma. (August 1, 1968)
This 28-year-old Niru was born in a Vaishnav family. She had never done the darshan of a vitarag murti—traditional Jain image of the unattached One. How beautifully she is holding on to this Gnan—of the Vitarags. This is vignan—spiritual science. This is because she has understood the science thoroughly and remains in the Agnas. (July 5, 1973)
I have had the avagaadha—constant experience of the Self and Niru has had the gaadha—unwavering experience of the Self. (October 8, 1969)
‘Niruno janmadin chhe aaj,
prarthu atmanubhav kaaj;
Spashta vedan jhankhu dinraat, ej
ekmev mooja araadha!’
-Niruben
‘’tis Niru’s birthday today, am
praying for the experience of the Self;
Yearning
for the clear experience of the Self, night and day, is the only devotion
filled endeavor of mine’
-Niruben
In this life, in this body she recognized Niru as a friend. Up until now all previous lives went in scrap. They went in the kind that can be sold as scrap. The real body is this one life’s of Niru’s, which made her immortal in this life. This body, which made her do the darshan—grant the vision—of the Lord. (November 17, 1968)
Today paramnoos—subatomic karmic particles—of infinite life times have been removed. Niru used to wonder daily when she would be able to rest after touching the vitarag—the fully enlightened one. Today I have facilitated the fulfillment of that bhav of hers. She is now sewing the seeds for her next life with me. Human beings have the power to do bhaav—create deep inner intent. This is due to the presence of mun—mind. Rain falling or not falling, famine happening or not happening is the result of the cause of human bhaav. (July 9, 1968)
Moksha—liberation readily exists at the feet of the Gnanis.
In this world, who would not have the desire to do such darshan? Niru, come sit up here with us—the Gnani Purush Dadashri and the fully manifest Lord within. If someone were to take a photograph the world would know that the kshinmoha Jineshwar—the passionless detached enlighted One was with the ganadhars—the protector and director of the newly established religion—for the world masses. ( June 29, 1970)
Yours, Niru is an independent state, no? Is there anyone to scold you ? Except for this Dada Bhagwan there is no superior over you. And when Dada Bhagwan scold , its is for the ultimate good. None of your brothers would scold or take you to task, This total independence is a result of great punyai—merit karma. Only a rare person would have this. Do the darshan of the Gnani Purush, serve Him and attain the Gnan.
You indeed have keval darshan—absolute vision. You are hearing keval Gnan—absolute knowledge.
In all the crowds Niru is the carrier of great merit karmas—mahan punyaishali. Independent as the Self and independent in relative interactions, she has become clean—free from all passions. She is a book without any accounts. (January 11, 1970)
This Niru is free from worldly interactions—vyavahaar mukta. And she is free from within. External freedom exists only for the Lord, but it is the result of great meritorious karma that she has attained total moksha, vitarag! (January 30, 1970)
Sooner or later one would have to come to the ultimate solution—ukel, no? Niruben is now sitting after having attained the ultimate solution and she is filled with the desire to let the world attain that too.
Niru, you have really become free. Just as I am free, you too have become totally free. This is alaukik—beyond the world—freedom. In the alaukik, there is no comparable punyai—merit karma. Even if you say five to seven times a day, ‘really freed, really freed,’ then that by itself is very effective! (December 12, 1972)
This Niru has become the emperor of the whole world! The palace of illusion—moha—has been shattered and she has become the emperor of the world. (January 25, 1973)
In this entire world there is none as fortunate as this Niru. I have seen her good fortune; it is tremendous. I still have to get rid of her disease—inner residual passions. She had not filled the stock (in the past life) with my permission, had she? (November 12, 1969)
We have to mold this Niru to such an extent that many a men will be dazzled by her presence. We will give her the proper heat treatment. (October 17, 1970)
The good qualities of Niru were being devoured by her bad qualities. I have destroyed those bad qualities. (October 17, 1970)
Niru’s sharanagati—surrender is of a very high order. Her vruttis—inner tendencies are very good. She adjusts to any takor—constructive criticism with ease. (January 7, 1970)
For Niru here, whatever unfolds in an orderly manner is acceptable, and if it does not, that too is Vyavasthit—scientific circumstantial evidence. So what in the world will obstruct her? She has no opinions at all. (January 14, 1977)
This is the grace of Dada Bhagwan. She has been liberated without any labor. Otherwise how can such a young girl-Niru be with Gnan—enlightened? She is a doctor. At the most she might know how to cook simple khicchadi—lentil and rice mixture. Or else she might know how to prescribe some medicine here and there, what else would she know? And his here is the infinite grace of Dada Bhagwan. (December 15, 1970)
Where did that young doctor girl go? She is a doctor, born in a Vaishnav—worshippers of Sri Krsna—family She retrned from Kankroli and today she is an Atmagnani—holds the knowledge of the Self. (March 20, 1970)
Amongst the ladies, this Niru has the potential to become a Prime Minister.
I said that she (Niruben) has the potential to be a Governor of Mumbai. The Gnani of Dada has the potential to be a Governor general. Those other governors tend to fight. She would not behave that way. The wife of the governor says, that he is crack—crazy. That is how it is in the world. (March 15, 1970)
This Niru may be young, but who ever does her darshan, will be liberated. (November 29. 1972)
The sequential order of Gnan
and Brahmacharya
(To Niruben) Only the Jains can understand the importance of your brahmacharya—life long vow of celibacy. From what the Jains tell me about you, I deduce that they understand. These Patidars—Patel community of ours have no development in this regard. The brahmacharya—state of celibacy that you have attained can be called very great. That very will lead to purnahuti—completion of the goal of liberation. The pad--state that you have attained is just like mine. The circumstances are very good. Who knows what level of past life merit karma is the reason for this!
Niruben, you have received tremendous protection from this Dada. One decade is over and when another decade passes, then tremendous lokpujya pad—state of public reverence and respect will arise.
One life’s brahmacharya destroys many a life times to come. This is in combination with Gnan—Self-realization—and therefore is extraordinary. One can live a totally celibate state, despite interacting with the world due to the protection of this Gnan. Otherwise it is not possible. And the world is such that it will not let one remain celibate. Celibacy is possible only in sadhuvesh—life of one who has renounced. But, here it is possible to remain celibate because of the power of the Gnan.
Just lying around for just sex is to lose one’s freedom and independence. The web of kids and offsprings spoil infinite life times. What can one say of the one who has escaped from this web naturally!
I have observed that the Brahmins of Dakor and other Brahmins look at you with respect. Their samaj—inner understanding is that much elevated. Otherwise this thing is hard to comprehend.
It has been only four years since Niruben has attained this Gnan, and yet she has the ability to make four hundred Jain sadhu maharaj—spiritual teachers— and other elders understand all aspects of this science, because here a cleaner of passions and sculptor (Dada) resides. When one encounters a vadanaar—cleaner and sculptor then all energies become manifest. ( April 11, 1973)
Niruben is a very great instrument of salavation of the world. I will never let her separate and stray away from me. I will leave all others but not her. (1975)
I meddle more persistently in the one in whom the potential for salvation of the world is evident. I am persistently tinkering with Niruben because she will some day in my absence change someone’s dhruvakanto—direction in which someone is going form worldly entanglements towards one of liberation. ( October 9, 1972)
We—the Gnani Purush and the fully enlightened Lord within—are giving the energy to the manifest Lord within Niruben—enlightened Niruben—to liberate 2,500,000 human beings. (August 16, 1969)
Niru, your doing bhavna—holding deep inner intent to have the power to liberate the masses of humanity suffering from all sides in the fire of misery in the world, binds a tirthankara gotra—creates a future life of a tirthanakara—the One who liberates millions. Do you want to bind such a gotra—clan? ( August 16, 1969)
This Niruben is such that she can become a tirthankara. (October 13, 1968)
Together life after life
Questioner: How many more lives will Niruben have?
Dadashri: One more lifetime.
For many a life times, you have been with me in the same manner. There is going to be one more lifetime for the both of us, and in that life to come, you will be with me too, but then you will not have a female form. You will be a male. Then the two of us will attain moksha—final liberation. (September 1, 1987)
The one who follows ones
defined goal
This Niruben does not have anything as dislikes. She likes everything. She has spent so many years in my constant company and has never had any issues of likes and dislikes. This is because she walks the path of her goal. She does not listen to her mind. I had made a deal with her. I had told her, ‘ You will have to follow brahmacharya, and that will be possible only if you follow my instructions.’
Questioner: So how is that?
Dadashri: One has to be strong about one’s goal and stick to it. What else is to be done? It remains so for her.
Started cutting the roots of
moha—illusion
Questioner: It has come up in the satsang of Dadashri that a female does not attain moksha with ease.
Dadashri: Now who has written that?
Questioner: It may have come up in satsang.
Dadashri: Yes, it means that it takes one more life time.
Questioner: Does it mean that one has to take many more births?
Dadashri: Yes, but for whom? Only in the traditional kramik path, not in this Akram Vignan. This Akram Vignan of ours makes the male and the female the equal. It is so in that kramik path wherein, it takes time to be rid of moha—illusion. The one who has taken Gnan is not delayed. There is no delay for the one who is Self-realized—with Gnan. We should not worry about these matters.
We should understand simply that there are countless types of women, but are you attracted by Dada or by gold jewelery? Are you involved with Dada or with clothes? The one whose knot of illusion—moha is cut has become a purush—male connotation to the Self. Niruben used to move about wearing certain type of clothes. I told her, ‘why do you have to wear clothes which tend to attract others?’ So then she gave away all her colorful clothes to people. So now I know that this one illusion has been shattered. She is a female body but her moha has decreased. So we know that the main root—the illusion that ‘I am Niru’ is dying.
This world exists because of the moha—the illusion. Otherwise even a female has become a tirthankara. There may be a few women who enter deeper into this talk of ours. The rest are neither here nor there. This much needs to be said. If this much is not said, how will they remain jagrut—aware as the Self?
She has spent her life in this. She does not like the results of attachment—mohaniya parinaam—‘this is mine.’ This Niruben is very jagrut—awakened as the Self. It is therefore easy to see that she is well on her way to moksha.
I told her that if she is interested in following brahmmacharya then such saris will not do. So she gave them away. Now she wears white sari. Does she not look like a saint?
Niruben also is hadukarmi—one who has numbered, few karma remaining to come to fruition before final liberation—because there is no messing around with issues of sexuality. The problem arises when there is a husband. So she is going to extract her ultimate work—of liberation from this life. Currently even two years in serving me will make her a tirthankara. Can become a tirthankara—liberator of millions—today.
Questioner: She will become one after two more lives.
Dadashri: No, that is fine. It is not a question of becoming or not becoming one. In reality, in this very life she is going to realize the fruits. She is going to become a great helper of masses of people! She is going to be a great helper of the feminine gender of this world. Currently, she is able to explain everything to people, do much, and thus gain the appreciation and reverence of the people.
Brahmacharya flourished under
the shelter of the Gnani
Charitra—total celibacy through thoughts, speech and acts—has been beautifully maintained by her. This beautiful brahmacharya conduct that she has followed through in my presence is a wonder, no? It is not easy to maintain this state. In my presence, I have seen that she has maintained it, very beautifully.
In the four years that she has been immersed in my seva—total service—I have seen that her charitra—conduct in brahmacharya—is of a very high order. She has exactly followed the vrat—vow that I had initiated her in, four years ago. There has never been an error through the medium of thoughts even, no? Not even a thought?
Niruben: No.
Dadashri: And if there has been a thought, then you do pratikraman—Dadashri’s divine method of reversal from aggression through internal recall, apology and resolution never to repeat the error—for it?
Niruben: Hmm..yes.
Dadashri: That is needed, for the one who has taken the vrat—vow in my presence. And she had a great need for this charitra.
Questioner: In this matter Dada would take on the responsibility of no one except Niruben.
Dadashri: No, I would not bother with anyone else. On her rests all the load of the satsang. The guaranty—of brahmacharya charitra—is for her only!
Questioner: This is because she has to stay in your company constantly.
Dadashri: We are not to see (the faults) of others. This of Niruben, has become one of the greatest supports. This is because all are saying that Dada is walking through the eyes of Niruben, is making Niruben do all the worldy interaction work. Therefore, the people have developed all bhaav—faith—in Niruben. There may be others, who seek the subtle reason, behind all this.
Questioner: Yes, yes Dada. The higher one rises in the public eye, the more they are subject to scrutiny for any inner hollowness and lack of fidelity.
Dadashri: Therefore to prevent people from committing errors I had told them that do not even harbor such thoughts in the mind even. Do not even entertain such negative thoughts, because I am giving a personal guaranty. If you harbor such a thought then the fault will take hold within you. There are countless people in our satsang with countless vikalps—negative connotations—and all kinds of thinking.
Questioner: You have given Gnan to the one who has been just walking on the road (the casual worldly person with hardly any spiritual insight), and the stock—from previous life—is such of these folks.
Dadashri: For her goal she has wagered her entire life in this. She tells that her life is not meant for any more mistakes. She has staked her entire life in this cause. If this were not for real, then the entire spirituality in our satsang would be worthless. It would collapse the foundation of our satsang. This is not a matter for anyone else. The world does not observe any other ladies. No one would scrutinize any other woman as to how she is and what she does. Ours here (in Akram) is a matter of nikal—to settle with equanimity. Containment over anger, pride, deceit and greed is the real sanyam—restrain, control. This brahmacharya—celibacy in thoughts, speech and acts is not counted under the control category. It is a circumstantial evidence. It is of course a great thing if it can be followed.
The non-contradicted speech of
the Gnani
Questioner: When we went there, many had gathered there and there Niruben gave satsang—spiritually uplifting experiential interaction in question and answer sessions.
Dadashri: Is that so?
Questioner: About eight to ten persons had gathered there.
Dadashri: When Niruben comes, even if there are two hundred people gathered, great work will be accomplished.
When Niruben gives the upadesh—the spiritual message from a master—she lets it flow from from the vantage of the Self—Shuddhatma thayeeney—and that talk lets bliss flow. And that talk is of a different order. It is not from material read from scriptures. If it is from a scripture, we can say, if you do not tell me, its fine, I will read it up. Is there not a difference between a book and Gnan? A book is a book. All the scriptures of the world are after all nothing but a book only. When a Gnani comes, his speech is verily a (living) scripture. (June 11, 1974)
(An foreign lady by the name of Priscilla was visiting Dadashri. Dadashri pointed to Niruben and told her…) She is really Chandanbala (please review the life of Lord Mahavira) at this time in this world. Only she will remain for years with me.Only one Chandanbala, no other Chandanbala in this world at the age of twenty-eight. Do you believe in it? Come and do the darshan every year.
Questioner: Yes. (She bows to Niruben).
Dadashri: She has conquered these four anger-pride-deceit and greed egoisms. Would you believe it, all four gone!
Questioner: These Gnanis (mahatmas of Dadashri) constantly worship the ‘Gnani Purush’ daily. One would attain kalyan—ultimate liberation—if one even took up the dust of their feet to the head—a gesture of reverence. This Niruben has beome an M.B.,B.S.—qualifying degree of a medical doctor. She met me at the age of twenty-four. In the four years that have passed she has understood the entire science. She can easily make a couple of hundred educated mahatmas like you understand this science, and that too without any contradictions. The speech may well be of a lower order but even an hours worth of speech that does not evoke any contradictions has such high value! And that too, in her language, not in mine. In the worldly topics there may be controversies but only in that respect. Only. Whereas; this here is an absolute science. Is it not a wonder that speech about the science of absolutism can flow without any contradictions or divisiveness for a whole hour?
One would need such persons for salvation of the world, no? All these are nimits—instruments. There is no doer in it. All this happens through scientific circumstantial evidences. (December 2, 1974)
The fruit of the grace of the
Gnani
How can those girls come here to ask for the answers to their questions? So I sent Niruben there, yesterday, for an hour and a half. They had a very satisfactory resolution to their questions with good understanding through her. Niruben can make others understand and grasp this. Even as a daughter of a Patel and as a young woman she has the ability to transmit the spiritual message. This is because she has worshipped the feet of the Gnani Purush for seven years (exemplary absolute humility). She has harbored the bhaav—deepest inner intent—of uninterrupted service to the Gnani. A fruit of this has to arise, no? Constant inner bliss—moksha prevails, what else is needed. There is no other issue left to meddle with.
How many pratyakhyans—resoultions never to repeat a mistake, alochana—recall of a mistake that happened, and pratikramans—internal apologies, do you think Niruben must be doing? It is with that ongoing that she is able to stay (around Dadashri). Now to two hundred Jains she can deliver an upadesh (message as a spiritual master). As a Vaishanav—born as a Krsna follower how is she able to deliver to Jains—Mahavira follower? That is called the grace of the Gnani.
Giving the understanding of the
worldly interactions through Gnan
Niruben’s prakruti—natural constitution and temperament—is ushnavat—energizing with radiance and inner heat. She has a very deep understanding. This deep understanding leads to the expression of a new sentence.
In vyavahaar—worldly interaction Niruben, if you have been entrusted to have a chef cook up a meal, which meal will be better? The one in which you sit for three hours in front of him or the one where you have taken fifteen minutes with him instructing him all that needs to be done and rechecking three hours later?
Niruben: The one in which I have left after showing in fifteen minutes?
Dadashri: That is proper. One should know how to get the work done. And for work only the presence is needed. On the other hand if the akkarmi—the one who does not really do any karma, here a term used by Dadashri to awaken the listener—sits glaring at the chef for all the three hours then all the meals will be spoiled by the cook. That is because the other moovo—another term for the one who is dying, frequently used by Dadashri to awaken the listener—will not refrain from barking—using words which hurt. He would bark and the cook gets flustered. The true thing is never to sit on anyone’s head. But alas the moovo akkarmi only understands that it is because of the barking that the work is getting done.
Everything gets done through the presence only. The worldly workers are always waiting in line for the supervisor to come and wondering how well they can gain his appreciation by showing off their work after seeing him. (June 9, 1970)
I have given an agna—instruction to this Niru that whatever is tasty to you, eat less of it and freely eat whatever you find to be without taste. I would never give such an agna to anyone. Such an agna is given to the one for whom a lot of love arises. She remembers Dada’s agna with every morsel that goes in. (March 15, 1970)
Sleep will come, will it not if one has had no sleep for extended periods? Yet all is known. Within there is the state of awakened awareness—jagrut avastha. Even in sleep, ‘she—the awakened one’—knows how much time Niru was in deep sleep. What an amazing state of jagruti prevails! She knows of the level of the deep sleep. (February 27, 1970)
Remember this much Niru. If equanimity prevails in all situations, then one becomes a Gnani. (May 31, 1969)
The worship of the Gnani Purush
in nine ways
Since three years Niruben is with me—the Gnani Purush—every second by second. There is no difference in opinion whatsoever. Leave alone difference in opinion, she has never raised her voice even. Has such a sevabhav—the pervasive desire to serve—has it happened to anyone else amongst so many here? This is the result of tremendous punyai—past life merit karma.
This is the expression of tremendous navadha bhakti—devotion and worship in nine ways and folds. Niru has developed a great bhaav—intent coming to fruition—of arpanata—surrender of all that is not the Self. With the prevalence of such good surrender, the fruits—results are indeed very great.
(Addressing Niruben…) This service to me that has come to you (in this life) is a punyai—merit karma of very high order. No one else has received it.
Service to us—the Gnani Purush and the enlightened Lord within—and the bhav—continued inner intent—of jagat kalyan—salvation of the world—is the only thing worthy for you to do. That much encompasses everything.
(On completion of seven days of service to Dada at Dr. Pujari’s place) No one will get such a sanjog—circumstance—and you have received it. Even I am surprised. Seven days of constant company with me in my service will get the work—ultimate spiritual goal—done and the Gnan comes into exactness. I have ‘seen’ that of yours (inner state of Niruben), no one will get such an intense concentrated circumstance (of spiritual progress).
She wants to attain purnahuti—completion of the spiritual journey—through the mode of seva—service—of Dada and it will happen. She has gained the amazing opportunity of these seven days. One does not attain the fully enlightened state of the Self by constant study of scriptures, or listening to the same. It can only happen through service (of the Gnani). Only through silent service. There is no need at all to ask or question anything.
By allowing to be served she
was raised to the top levels of awareness of Gnan
Dadashri: Niruben said, I will stay, and thereafter I allowed all three to stay.
Questioner: When you fell off the bed and sustained a hip fracture, is that about the time at the hospital?
Dadashri: No, in the hospital, only Niruben alone was there in my service.
So then when we went to Ravjibhai’s place here, then all of them started telling Niruben, you stay off and let go (taking care of Dada). One of our bhais—common Gujarati term to address a gentleman—said, ‘I will stay (with Dada at the hospital).’ Whereupon, another bhai said, ‘no, I will stay.’ Then they all went to dinner. Then Niruben said, ‘ Dada, please do this much, grant me the privilege of taking care of you. I would like that much labh—inner gain.’ I decided that. This is because the female gender has no difficulty in this. And later all three went to bed. Now in the night when I would get up simply to expectorate, Niruben would remain sleeping and the other two guys would jump up on every move of mine. I told them, tomorrow the two of you will be dismissed, you have not slept the entire night. If you remain so much emotional, then when will you ever reach the stage (of enlightenment)? If you spoil your health then a new problem will be created, so come only when I call for you, or when I say, wake up bhai. I would hardly get up for a simple spit and the two of them would jump up from sleep saying, ‘Dada I am bringing it, Dada, I am bringing it (the spittoon).’ Thereafter, I told them not to remain in my service. I told them, ‘Keep only Niruben.’ My desire too was to have Niruben only. This is because it looks wrong if two guys have to lift me up for toilet purposes, and for a female this is a sahaj—intrinsic naturalness—matter.
Questioner: Everyone’s prakruti—nature of the formed complex, the non-Self of thoughts speech and actions—is different.
Dadashri: This cough, and cleansing within, all the nursing, is this an ordinary matter?
The deepest inner intent—bhaav of Niruben was, that if she got the opportunity to be of service, then the Gnan—knowledge received form Dadashri—would become experiential and, my bhavnaa—desire indeed was that if as a woman she attains such a spiritual level of experience, then she will become an instrument for salvation of so many other females. So indeed there was an inner partiality for her. Additionally there was a desire not to create difficulties for the two men. Why put them through difficulties? I told them that if Niruben was not around, they were to be the ones to be there for sure. Let the poor lady have some gain (spiritual) as she wants it so badly. She had the deep desire because she never got the opportunity. She used to let me let do the entire toilet on the bed only and I stopped that after coming to Aurangabad, because it became possible for me to move around from the bed.
Now this is an amazing happening that something happened to this leg (hip fracture) and some punyai—merit karma—of Niruben’s must have awakened to come to fruition that such a good thing happened. If this one (Niruben) becomes ready then countless other poor (spiritually) women will benefit from her ability to give excellent upadesh—preaching. Otherwise who is going to go to preach the poor women? This was indeed our bhaavna—effective desire—that if she becomes ready it would be very beneficial.
Everything is going to be ready. It does not need to be done. All are getting ready (for the ultimate goal of final liberation). Only for her (Niruben) if she were not given the seva—the opportunity to serve—then she would not have become ready.
Questioner: Why so?
Dadashri: Just mere listening will not let it stick within. In this service she got to see it, night and day. Say, she spilt some water on Dada and herself, she got to ‘see’, whether Dada became upset or remained unpurturbed, and at such times imagine how much inner effect will be there!
Questioner: There will be a lot of effect, immediate recognition of total stillness of Dada happens. One gets to see Dada’s samata—total equanimity in all situations.
Dadashri: She saw the sthira—still--amidst so much vishamata—distress. She ‘saw’ her own mistakes too, and the inner steadiness as well.
Questioner: Yes, Dada. It is a very big training, now.
Dadashri: She will get that training. She got it all as part of this that she asked for. The mistakes will happen for the one who does something, no? Therefore, her mistakes will continue, and we recognize them instantly. However, we—the Gnani and the fully enlightened Lord within—remain vitarag—totally detached. Otherwise if a person is slightly sick or bedridden then he will take the caretaker to task by sick by endless bickering.
Questioner: Yes Dada, it would be a tough thing, and create a lot of problems.
Dadashri: Some day we alert the person, when a hundred to two hundred mistakes have happened, bur really speaking, we tend not to say anything. If we make her angry, then she will not be able to remain near me. If she is carrying some hot coals around me and one happens to fall on me, I would remain silent. So how many such circumstances may have arisen?
Questioner: This may have arisen in every second, in every ritual, in every task, in every minute.
Dadashri: In bathing and toilet, in this work and that, in so many situations. The mistake does happen for the one who toils. In all that she got to see the charamcharya—final daily life routine—of the Gnani Purush and that is her great good fortune.
Questioner: What a great fortune indeed, Dada! No one else would be so fortunate.
Dadashri: She has seen every routine by the minute. The routines of the Gnani taking meals, drinking, and bathing, she saw all routines. When the salvation of the world is to happen, one becomes so prepared. Many special women and celibate girls will be trained and spiritually prepared by her, and all that is in my advance vision—hisaab. This is because the samata—equanimity—that she has seen will arise within her, too.
Now having sat next to Dada, near Dada, and acquired His rajipo—grace, what then remains? What else remains? How much seva—service? Whatever service done for Dada, is whose service done? It is equivalent to the service done for the Lord of the universe! What else remains then?
Questioner: Nothing else remains, Dada.
Every service is in the
awareness of the Gnani
Dadashri: Now, even if you were not to be blamed, I would say that you have no substance and depth in you. So then you would ruminate within, that now there is no more depth within, what’s going on? I have to use such words.
Niruben: Not with depth and substance, Dada, simply had assumed that there was depth and substance.
Dadashri: Yes simply had believed that there was some depth and substance—barkat. No one else in your place would ever believe what I was saying to be true. That is the reason why this much grace flowed on you. I was convinced of that change in your vision—drashti. It gave me much joy.
Niruben: It would happen to you, Dada. More than it would happen to me, because all the effort is yours Dada.
Dadashri: I would even say that, I am at a loss without you. I would use such words to quickly amend the words that I had used. It is true that I like you company, not from the nischaya—from the perspective of the Self—though. You may say that you are leaving, but then I would not want you to stay, but I would feel within that it would be nice if you stick around. For you I had placed an abhedabhaav—the feeling of oneness—two souls and one body.
Niruben: That is true Dada. When it touches my heart within, I am very aware of it.
Dadashri: Yes abhedabhaav—the sense of oneness. This is all very subtle. You have understood it further now, because it was all clear—not clouded by passions—within. I had said that I couldn’t forget your upkaar—good deed—for what you had done for me. I would be in trouble if you were not to progress in your Gnan.
Niruben: Yes, you used to say that, Dada.
Dadashri: When my leg (hip) was broken, I had said, let me go use the toilet bearing weight on it. Then you said, you do not like me straining so much. She would lift up my faeces, and clean me up so nicely in bed, wash me with so much care all over while I was bed ridden. Then clean off all the soiled material with water, bucket by bucket, rolling me gently from side to side. Tell me, how can I ever repay this debt?
Questioner: No, it can never be repaid.
Dadashri: I used to live at my nephew’s place. The nephews were all ready to help but the boys cannot do this much. ‘You go to the toilet, I will sit here and wait for you,’ he would say. I know it all, and here Niruben would say, no, go ahead and do it right here (on the bed). Do you think I would forget all that? If someone has given me a cup of tea, I would remember it.
Niruben: Dada remembers everything. Knowing that, my heart is filled with emotion of gratitude. See how minutely he remembers it all.
Dadashri: It may be all be very minute in detail, but I have seen that you have never been tired or repelled from taking care of me. I said, the poor lady is sleeping soundly, and she would say, no, wake me up, I am never experience any disgust or fatigue (in matters of taking care of Dada). So would I not understand everything? I understand it all. I am not an ascetic I am a Gnani. The people would not understand all this, no?
Questioner: We understand it all, Dada. Especially being around you, we understand it all more clearly. And when you say all this we feel respect and reverence for Niruben and feel like offering her our continuous obeisance. Glorious praise to this Niruben!
Dadashri: What an amazing seva—service opportunity—for Niruben! Such amazing and strong seva is very rare for anyone. Where will one get this seva of this Gnani Purush for even half an hour?
The work of infinite life times has been accomplished firmly. Otherwise no one will allow such seva. Even a slight caress over the leg is not allowed. No other service is allowed. Now see, the leg broke and all the seva came to Niruben!
Questioner: But Dada suffered a loss, no?
Dadashri: What loss was incurred? We have infinite wealth, no? What loss can happen where there is infinite (inner) wealth? Even then, no one gets to lay a hand on that wealth. If we allow a simple caress of a hand (on our body), they take away a bit of that wealth. A little bit only, not a lot, and not that easily. We get a tremendous rush of inner wealth. We have infinite inner wealth. There is no loss of anything! For her the occasion has arisen since two years. Whenever a sickness arises, she is there together and this a a great unfolding (the seva opportunity). Seva is rarely available. In an illness, the most one can do is to apply cold compresses, what more? What can be done when the hip breaks? The man is then apang—lame and helpless. One has to do all the seva for the lame and the handicapped.
This Niruben said, give me all that seva—the opportunity to serve. This became very firm and proper for Niruben.
The applied awareness of the
Self during bathing the Gnani Purush
While bathing if the hand has to be moved here and there, it takes away your upayoga—the awareness from the vantag